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Monday, August 2nd, 2010
10:24 pm
so ready to get home
california here i come!
school is winding up here in rochester
life is looking up
Thursday, June 24th, 2010
2:20 am
i can't sleep, yay school
coffee too late
now i can't sleep
feelin kinda burnt
wheeeee
Monday, June 7th, 2010
9:32 am
online videos and all
i have 3 exams this week. somehow i don't feel stressed out. i got high b's on the last 2, and i feel like the material for these is a little more self explanatory. i should get out of bed, into the shower, and walk down to school so i can study some more. maybe i'll get to go swimming or to yoga today. either would lower my blood pressure further, though school has made me realize how weirdly low my bp is. 99 out of 100 times the top number is under 100. i'm going to freak a lot more people out as this program goes on.
Monday, May 24th, 2010
9:54 am
rochester and new toys
rochester is lovely
i have to remember that now while i still believe it
it's sunny out side most days
and it's balmy
i have a 1bdroom apt all to myself, so i can close the door on my bedroom and ignore the pile of clothes on the floor
i have a giant kitchen in which i will continue to horde food for the ever impending winter
there are some neat things to do and some really nice to do them with.
home doesn't seem all that far away as of yet
august is right around the corner

i have an iphone now
god help us all
it took me a day and a half to figure out how to ring people from the contacts list
i am not cut out for this
Saturday, May 15th, 2010
12:03 pm
oh live journal
why have i forsaken you?
i'm not really sure
i had crazy dreams again last night
i attribute it to reading american god's
freaking amazing
why have i waited so long to read this?

my apartment is coming together quite nicely. a few more paint by numbers and we'll be in full swing.
maybe i will make some of my own!
Monday, November 30th, 2009
9:10 am
crazy dreams
i lived and went to school with jen, sean, jacob, and a shit ton of other people
at school we were learning old english dances and sean was my dance partner
i kept miss stepping in the beginning, but i figured it out pretty fast
sean kept trying to do sexy things, which was not allowed
we were hanging out after class and we found this juvenile stag
he was very friendly but i was afraid he was going to gore someone with his antlers
i went to the house of the family i baby sit for
carrying the sleeping bag i use as my blanket in real life
i also had a giant art portfolio
i thought no one was home but then heard amy making noise downstairs
i didn't want her to know i'd been there
so i snuck out
then i went home and jen and jacob were playing with a giant doll house
they were throwing things at it
the dolls were moving on their own and they looked like the band mates from ccr
they had a name for the game they were playing but i forget what it was
then the kids i baby sit for arrived
and one of them was this huge boy in a red silk shirt and black tux pants
he had spikey blond hair
and wanted to write on me with crayon
then my phone rang and i couldn't find it in the pile of my house mates' phones
Sunday, November 22nd, 2009
10:09 pm
chet's guitar and a whole lot of indecision
i took a crazy deep sleep nap. i woke up not really sure if i was in the same space and time. after fully resurfacing blasted through a lab report. i feel like i've had a lot on the back burner that's making my forehead tense and my jaw clench if i'm not thinking about it. university of rochester is probably my best choice for school. this means that if i get in i will have to move far away from my family, friends, apartment, and ocean. all of this is distressing on some level. the possibility that i won't be around to take care of my garden, that my new home will have snow, and that i will be in over my head academically are all totally terrifying. there will be sourdough bread i've been told, so this is won't be sacrificed. i'm really scared to move that far away from my gran. she's doing really well, and i know she wants me to achieve my goals, but i like being within an hour or so of her. if she gets sick i'd have to fly home and deal with taking time out of a crazy fast paced program. meh. i know what i have to do, but rochester sounds like a less soulful place than maine if i had to choose an east coast program. there's something about maine that has always intrigued me. it sounds like one of the nicest places to be if it's 30 below. i can't even comprehend weather that cold. i get this glazed over feeling when i try to imagine weather that cold. i guess i'll have to get good at bowling. or moving swiftly from heated place to heated place. or maybe i won't get in anywhere, and i'll stay right here, snug as a bug, no rug, that bit never made sense to me unless i was a dust mite. ok i need to go back to real work now.
yay
Friday, October 23rd, 2009
5:14 pm
stranger things have happend
i've been a butt about updating this thing. school is rough and tumble, and my nursing school apps are in. all there is to do is wait on it. they'll get back to me someday before i die of a panic attack. but in all honesty, life is so lovely. fall is pretty perfect around here. i still have tomatoes in my garden, and i think i've finally figured out how to grow potatoes. it's going to be hard to leave this area, if and when i have to. here's hoping i get to stay.
Friday, September 4th, 2009
10:40 pm
operation marin study
so today we went to marin to eat oysters and to study
we packed a glorious feast of tomato salads, artichoke bread, olives, pasta salad, dolma, white wine and various other goodies.
we made our way to the hog island oyster farm where we basked in the sunshine while shucking our own oysters

we talked about studying a lot
and studied very little
all in all a perfect afternoon

we rounded it out by going to the beach where everyone helped me collect stuff for some art pieces
such neat crab tops and claws and seal and bird bones!

then low key dinner in point reyes station

all in all a perfect day with lovely company
i really don't think it gets better than this.
and yes i reallize i'm a bougie girl
but i'd rather be called bohemian
Monday, June 15th, 2009
12:36 pm
i don't come here often anymore
i'm such a bad lj updater. life has been full. steph is coming today! life is happy. project fun summer is in full swing. here's to returning to summers of old. days by the beach and hair in the wind.
Monday, May 25th, 2009
9:10 am
dreams of strange incorperation
i had more crazy dreams
this one was about being late for work
which i have quite often

i was hanging out with eve
i had just purchased some awesome heals
we both lived in these crazy old houses with tons of people
they were two blocks from one another
there was a crazy produce market between them
and i went to the produce market to get food for work before we had hung out
it was really busy
and i kept not being able to make up my mind
i also didn't know where to pay
the counter went around the perimeter of the room
so i'm hanging out with eve in her house and i look at the clock and think i'm suppost to be at work like right now
and she shushes me and shows me that the clock i'm looking at is broken
and it's really much earlier
and then i see my bus leave
and i freak out
we decide we should go to our boss's house to help with stuff for the opening which is also that night
and there's tons of food on her table
as it's all going for the opening
she also has a giant black cat and a weird little dog
there were also three people out on the patio
i had never been to lisah's house before is i decided to go look at the patio and meet the folks out there
it was a tiny space that was long and narrow
and had steps up to another level at one end
the people were all sitting on a bench hear the stairs
two of them were an older couple
and there was a drag queen with sunglasses on saying something to the lady
they all seemed very chummy
i came out and sat on the stairs and the black cat sat down next to me
i wrapped my hand in a table cloth and the cat started to suck on my finger
he grabbed on to my arm and i could feel a massive hair ball in his throat
i really didn't want him to puke on me but i couldn't pull my hand away
he was holding on so tight
every time i tried to wriggle away he just gripped harder and i could feel his claws poke through the table cloth
there was some comotion with the other folks on the patio
then the alarm went off
weird
Tuesday, May 19th, 2009
11:47 am
i am now 26 years old
i'm 26
crazy
i spent the day at the beach
watching dolphins eat sardines
eating breakfast at paula's with alyson
damn i love that place and that lady
we went back to the beach
and looked at the lack of surf
we found a free bin in which she claimed a milk crate of mags and i got a RAMBO shirt and a mug
the shirt is too small for me so either jen or rita are going to wear it and make me happy
i drove back to the eb
listend to music the whole way
then off to burritos at gordo
that place is so very tasty
i was so happy that everyone came out

sam, holly, and cat got stuck near by due to her car getting stuck in reverse
that got solved eventually
thank goodness

we all got to the bar and had a lovely time

there's a new radio lab
i'm contented
Friday, May 15th, 2009
3:00 pm
audry two
the morning glories and trumpet vines are taking over the back yard
i've cut twice my height in piles of vines
filled the green bin three times
and i've still got another three or four bins worth
but that's progress

my house has started smelling funny
it's kindof like there's a gas leak or something
i'm getting worried

my response is to go to aptos
i'm going to do laundry
plant my gran's vegetable garden
and generally relax
i think it'll be a good way to ring in 26 years of life
god i'm getting old
it's scary
Sunday, May 3rd, 2009
12:48 pm
dreams of blood sausage
i had a dream in which my mom and i were at berkeley bowl
we had randomly run into each other there
and we proceeded to walk through their many different rooms with different foods
there was a really odd small room with refrigerated shelves containing all kinds of blood products
they were so dark and velvety with perspiration
my mom thought this was all disgusting once she realized what it was
i still think it was beautiful
Friday, May 1st, 2009
3:49 pm
feeling more done than i am
if i was a turkey i'd be banging on the oven door
this stupid homework isn't going to do itself
i keep leaving the window open on my paper and it keeps feeling like the most pointless bs ever
it's raining
and i want to drink tea, nap, and read frivolous fiction and non-fiction that i won't have to remember tomorrow
i had many odd dreams last night
the scariest being that i was driving on the highway and traffic suddenly stopped in front of me
i slammed on the breaks and woke up right before impact
i also had a false awakening in which i talked to jon about how i snore
the cat slept on my chest which i think may have contributed to the wacky dreams
at one point i woke up and she gently touched my chin with her paw
in other news
i should be writing
Wednesday, April 15th, 2009
2:15 pm
new york has been good to me
the food and the people here are amazing
it's a big lonely city but i have my cozy little group
i can now navigate the subway with relative ease
and i don't have to drive anywhere
the biggest problem i've had is layering properly
i'm sad to think that steph might not move to the eb soonly
but i understand why she wants to stay
she's made some amazing friends here
and really seems to be enjoying herself
if only we could travel through the phone line
then i would be able to see her more often
Tuesday, April 7th, 2009
2:44 pm
the sky is open
the rain is warm so far. though i've got some water bottles ready to be filled with boiling water and strategically placed to keep the little plants warm over night. i hope to god it doesn't hail, though hail is pretty cool. my house is still a giant mess. i'm getting rid of enough to make my closet into less of a disaster zone. now all i need is a hope chest to put my sleeping bag and other bedding in. and also help me catch a husband. i just realized i still have beats in the oven. ftw
Friday, March 27th, 2009
8:25 pm
picknick club!
picknick club is the best! we sat on albany hill and ate tasty foods, drank tasty drinks, played on the swing, and caught butterflies. all in all a stellar day. i then came home and napped for 3 hours or so! best day ever.
Monday, March 16th, 2009
8:04 am
crazy beautiful intricate dream time
there's a lot here i don't remember but here goes nothin

i lived on a nature preserve with my family
which consisted of two or three brothers and sisters and our dad
who was a scientist
we had a pet vulture
the streams were empty of all life
our dad kept putting dead fish in them for the vulture
huge bass and little dead trout
they would be swept downstreem for the vulture to eat

my little brother who was about 13 and blond studied explosives

one day we came upon a group of 20 somethings throwing things around
one of the guys spotted our vulture way up in the sky
he heaved a giant rock ringed with silver into the air
and killed our vulture

i grabbed one of the girls around the waist and said they were going to jail
my other siblings were trying to figure out how to keep them there
the guys mannaged to run off
but i still had my arm around one of the girls

as the guys were taking off one of them said "you should give us the scariest experiance on our way out"
so my dad challenged them
and then the girl and i were walking through an indian temple
there were men laying on the floor instockades
everything was brown and gold
one grabbed at her skirt
i was terrified
we were brought infront of a king who was behind a curtain of reeds
there was a pile on the floor and something was starting to ooze out
the king's face was painted in white and red and gold dots
he was giant and sitting behind a desk of some kind
we ran out the other door crossing in front of him
in the next room there was a library
full of books with rice in them
they rattled
the other girl picked one up
and the princess started to chase us
we ran and ran through different rooms
we couldn't run fast enough
sometimes i was the chaser
sometimes i was the chased
the princes ran on all fours and had wild hair
and giant teeth
finally we ended in a smallish white room
and the two girls became tiny and hid under a cloth on a rulet table
i was a servent who'd been following the princess
and i saw them imediately
so i stood by the table so she would think that their havey breathing was my own
the princes was wearing a peach skirt suit and her hair was perfect
she was perfect
finally she saw them/us
and pulled back the cover
the other girl tried to run away, and slipped into the closit
the princes slid in after her and i heard terrible noises
when she came out she was like porcelain and was wearing a long dark purple velvet gown with pearl buttons down the front
i pretended to be a telephone holder
she looked at me and then diapered leaving her dress perfectly flat on the floor
it then slowly slid under a door opposite me
it was then that i noticed the door adjacent to it
i opend the door and it looked out over the sea
there was a track with little rocket ships running on it
it was an amuzement park ride that kids were on
the track ran in and around these old houses that hung over a large cliff overlooking the ocean
my friend rode by and said "I knew you'd come! hop on!"
but he was passing me
and i couldn't get on in time
so i slowly lowerd myself onto the tracks
and made my way up
he met me there and we climbed down onto a hill that came up to meet the track
it was all very bright
the sky was so blue
and the grass was wet and green
we made our way down and by this time i realized we aere orphans
one of the older orphans was trying to get a tiny blond girl who had come with us out from behind the fence
apparently the guys who ran the place weren't paying attention
and now we couldn't get her back

and that's where i woke up

my brain = crazy time
Friday, February 27th, 2009
1:10 pm
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